Scribblings of the Opiated Sherpa

Walked out of there, Not much to live for, They hate me, Me hates me. Walking slowly, Nowhere to go, No one to see, Weight shifted as I walk. Left leg out, I am on the ground. Right leg taken too. Rolling in pain, Agony and anxiety. End it, end it now! Left alone to suffer, Life blown to hell. Physical pain too much. End me, end me now! Multiply that, By everyday in your life.

Don't call me a tragedy, There is no regret. I might crack jokes, But I am not a comedy. Anything I do, Does it make you think? Does it make you laugh? Things seem to be set in their ways. I want her, But I only see her. I want to buy this, But I can only have that. Solitude is definite, Loneliness is inevitable, Darkness is comforting. Everything is simple, Everyone wants complexity, I am happy, Complexity is troubling. It's hard to be ignorant, With so much going on. News is bad, Money is going, Time is fading. Alone is not so dramatic, But it is here to stay.

I just want To be left alone. To myself My thoughts, Not yours. My feelings, Not your opinion. I don't have to Do what you want Me to do. I'll go left, You point right. I'll sit, When you want me to stand. I'll do it for spite, How I like spite. I want to take it slow. Don't rush me. You'll only make me Make more mistakes. I don't care If I'm too slow. I don't care If I miss the bus. I'll find my way. Don't leave my side. I might not need you now, But I could help you. You might need me. I'm not rushing Out your door. I'll look outside. I'll see what I need to And then I will go. I still want you close. I need to be the judge of that. Don't breathe down my back, But I need you in my reach. You just might save me From something stupid. You're my elastic band To pull me back, If I need to jump. This time is important, To find my way, To find myself.