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Expensive

I try too hard, For something that I really want, And that something that I want, Is you. Don't ask me why I try so hard, Because the answer is you. Look into the mirror, And you'll see my million reasons. I want the chance to impress the impressive, To obtain the seemingly impossible, To pay the extremely high price, To have everything you can give. Take your freight train, Barrel into my brick wall, Open me up, And just say yes. To convince would be golden, To chance is special enough, A decline would be black, But a smile is the whole world inside of me. One... One time, One answer, One heart here in front of you.

Into Us

I wish there were days, That I could look into her mind, And she into mine, Living joyfully in the comfort of our own thoughts, As we compensate for each other, And know exactly what to say. We can send cells of our body, Into each other, Like a link between brains, To know what we think about each other, When the time comes, That we doubt our actions. We could hold hands forever, Knowing each other through osmosis, Having our impulses go to both heads, And we know what to do, When we know what emotion fills the air. We could stare into each others eyes, Gaze into the wonder of us, Watch the color of emotion in our sky, Read it like today's paper, But this newspaper that we read, Is nothing but good news. If only this were true, If we could be in our heads, If a piece of us is in us, If we could hold each other, Or If we could look into each other, It would be so easy. But regardless of how hard it is, I want to try anyways, The old fashioned way, Of just talking, And I hope that i

To You...

I am not gone, I'm still here. You cannot see me now, Because I am hiding in the shadows, Of regret? Probably not. I was moving too fast, I hoped you'd move just as quick, I guess not. When I look back, I won't look too far. I know what I saw, And I know I still see it. There was great promise in you, And me, I believe there still is. I respected you then, And I showed it to you in living color. I respect you now, And this is why I send this to you, Because I want to respect you tomorrow, And days after that. I respected enough to listen, I heard every word that you said, I honored your time, Tried to play my cards well, But maybe not enough was spent there. But when I spoke out to you, Or asked you a question, I couldn't help but notice, There was nothing coming back. And now all the respect for myself, Was being lost, Because I didn't feel that I was giving what you needed, And that I am falling into failure. Time seemed to move slower, But my heart moved faster

A Nervous Audition

My stomach is turning around in circles, Faster than a dog chasing his tail. The butterflies have grown, Like the rats in New York, And they are flying faster than a Midwest tornado. I can't feel my breathing, I don't know if the air is coming in, Or out. The food I try to consume, Can't make it's way in, Because you have already taken over. I'm so full of you, That you are spilling over into my mind, Making it go crazy, Waiting... waiting... waiting. Don't you trust me, Do you not believe me, Do I not show enough respect for you, Or am I not strong enough? I put the spotlight on me, An audition for your heart, Tell me what to do or to say, I'll try my best to give you, What you want, For this play that you call life. If I don't make up to your standards, I'll walk off the stage, And I'll go. But my performance will be from the heart, Everything I have to give, And for that, I hope to earn something, Anything.

Barrage of Emotion

Your mind, So precious and true, Now polluted with thoughts of me, And the uneasiness I have caused. It might have be what I feel, But now I realize you are more important, Than what I feel, Even though you are who I feel for. My mistake has seem to have cost me, Cost me something great I had before, And now I don't even know, What I even have anymore. I only wish I could climb inside your head, Know what you are thinking, And comfort each thought, With a reason why you should be with me. But I can't, So I am left with a defenseless feeling, Waiting for you to attack my soul, With a barrage of emotion. If it is good, Or it is bad, You're gonna come hard and fast, Don't let up because I deserve it. Hit me, Hit me as hard as you can, Just do it, Don't stop yourself.

Packaged

If you told me before I started, That right now I'd be here, With no one with me, I don't know how surprised I'd be. Grab a bat... Then you told me I had nothing, Between now and then, I probably would have laughed, At the idea of being alone. Go for it... People make it look so easy, Finding someone to care for, Someone who would cared back, Regardless of time and place. Do it, wind up... And with having nothing, Came absolutely nothing, Doing everything except everything, Being something without something. No, don't hesitate... Being alone brings value, New values of a lonely life, Like I had a choice, Or anything to base them on. Now your major league swing... New values of a heart, Still brand new, In a brand new case, Of triple-paned plexi-glass. Unload your feelings... Through the bat... Break on through... Would you know how to, Treat something that is never been seen? Or would you know to handle, What it's gonna give ya? Again, hit it again... Do you really

I'm So Confused

I've gone and done it. I've confessed to you, How I feel. I don't think it was all that strong, Nor do I believe that is was all wrong. You smile at me, Like you were flattered, And that's all. A good bounce off of a brick wall, But I couldn't break through, To hear what was on the other side. For some reason, For self-preservation, I need to hear that voice on the other side, To know how you feel. This beautiful wall, I've thrown myself at, And everything I've got, And very little has comeback. The responses I have received, I've enjoyed and taken to heart, But it can mean anything, Or it could mean nothing. I know what I want it to mean, I just have to hear it from you. I don't want to doubt you, And I don't want you to doubt me, Because I know for sure, If this can happen, It'll be great. Please give me a chance, Or tell me something, So I'm not sitting here confused. I care right now, And that's all that should matter, To start so

Me To You

And at long last, I am finally able to see you. This wonderful person, On the other end of the line, Actually in person, In front of me here. Just from listening to you, And reading you before, I was for certain, Not to be disappointed, And I wasn't. You are as glorious as you seemed, You are as pretty as I could have imagined, And right there and then, I had fallen further down this steep cliff, Then where I had fallen to before. I may not have come across this way, Being as though I held back, That is just the way I am, I don't think I could go much faster, I wanted to see what you were like, Now that has passed and I would like to continue. I would like to offer you, Everything I am. I am a person who will listen, To whatever you want to say. I am a hand that you can hold, For the times you are in need of help, Hold as hard as you need, Cause I am not going to break. If you need to be held, For protection or for warmth, I wouldn't hesitate to do so, And I'd never wan