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A Nervous Audition

My stomach is turning around in circles,
Faster than a dog chasing his tail.

The butterflies have grown,
Like the rats in New York,
And they are flying faster than a Midwest tornado.

I can't feel my breathing,
I don't know if the air is coming in,
Or out.

The food I try to consume,
Can't make it's way in,
Because you have already taken over.

I'm so full of you,
That you are spilling over into my mind,
Making it go crazy,
Waiting... waiting... waiting.

Don't you trust me,
Do you not believe me,
Do I not show enough respect for you,
Or am I not strong enough?

I put the spotlight on me,
An audition for your heart,
Tell me what to do or to say,
I'll try my best to give you,
What you want,
For this play that you call life.

If I don't make up to your standards,
I'll walk off the stage,
And I'll go.

But my performance will be from the heart,
Everything I have to give,
And for that,
I hope to earn something,
Anything.

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