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I'm back to this
Last night didn't work
I was still awake to partially awake for hours.

How could I not think about you
And you
And me?

Where does all this time go?
Why is it wasted?
Where I am supposed to go now?

I'm going to try and sleep again
My mind makes no promises
Despite being convinced I'm getting stronger.

Last night's thought process will be a little bit different
Probably not by much
But enough that I probably won't see 2am.

I want to convince myself
That either of you shouldn't be here
One is definitely easier than the other.

I'm still reflecting
Even in the middle of this piece
It's distracting.

My heart bleeds a bit
Some for you
Mostly for me when I awake from my daydream.

My skin is breaking out in stress
My eyelid follows suit with it's twitching
Suprised my hair isn't falling out.

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Dr. Fong said…
I love the idea of your blog and that header image is wonderful. I have a really hard time reading it because of the colors. Some of the text doesn;t even show up. Changing this would help people like me enjoy it more. Good luck!
November 09, 2006 1:05 PM
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